God had this plan for us long before we even knew it, I truly believe that.
Jake & I have gone to school together since the 4th grade, I didn’t know what he would mean to me right away but I always knew there was something special about the two of us. Starting in about 8th grade (if I remember right) I had a massive crush on Jake & turns out he had one on me too, we were so young but as the years went on this crush never really went away. We both dated other people but I think in the back of our minds we always knew we were meant to be together. We used to joke around & say one day we were going to get married. We always said when we got married it would be in the mountains of Colorado. (We live in Michigan, but the Colorado mountains have a special place in our hearts) little did we know that thought of us getting married would soon be our reality.
After high school Jake, moved to Boulder, Colorado to go to the university there, he of course loved living in Colorado. He came home for Christmas break & we ran into each other after years of not seeing one another. Our lives have never been the same sine that day. I knew after seeing him again, he was my soul mate. I confessed my love for Jake to his best friend Zach, Zach told me that if I really loved Jake I had to tell him before he went back to Colorado. So I did. I made sure that Jake knew how I felt about him & he felt the same way about me!! Christmas break was coming to an end & it was time for Jake to head back to Colorado for school, this broke my heart knowing he was going to be so far away. The morning he was going to the airport to fly back to CO I woke up to a text message from him, this is what it said…
“I’m on my way to the airport Raven. I couldn’t have asked for a better two weeks to end my break. It’s extremely bittersweet, but the sweet outweighs the bitter. I wasn’t planning on any of this happening, but i’m so glad that it did. It’s not goodbye, I promise you that. Stay beautiful “
“it’s not goodbye, I promise you that” that was only the beginning of our love story.
Jake finished up school for the year & moved back to Michigan (YAY!) we spent all of our free time together. He made me the happiest girl in the world, but something in me wasn’t allowing me to be truly happy. My whole life I have battled this terrible disease called “depression” as time went on I sunk into this really dark place where I felt like my world was falling apart. I loved Jake so much & he made me so happy so why couldn’t I just be happy? During this time, Jake NEVER gave up on me, for countless days & nights I would lay in bed & cry, Jake was always there, he held me & told me everything would be ok. He loved me when I must have been impossible to love. THAT IS TRUE LOVE.
Jake is my rock, he is strong when I am weak & I cannot thank him enough for loving me in good times, but more importantly loving me in the really bad times.
The thing about depression is it never really goes away & you have to figure out ways to cope with it. I tried everything countless medications, therapy, anything & everything, it was often hard for Jake to understand why I couldn’t just be happy. This is where God comes in. Jake has always had this amazing love for God, this was something I didn’t understand. He would talk to me about God & wanted me to accept God into my life. Me, being the stubborn person that I am wanted nothing to do with it. As the years went on, he just stopped trying, he would go to church without me & I really didn’t mind, but I still felt like something was missing from my life.
Jake’s dad got involved with a ministry called “declores” it is a spiritual weekend retreat for people seeking God. Jake really wanted to go but I wasn’t convinced. Jake went on his weekend & when he came home he was on fire! His love for God was pouring out. He was going to change the world. I had to go after seeing what it did for him, so I did. I went on my Declores weekend with my mother in law, Sheila. Our lives haven’t been the same since. When I’m having a bad day I pray about it, when everything is going great I pray about it & I thank God every day for placing Jake in my life. The power of prayer has changed our lives dramatically. We are so happy & more in love than ever before.
God placed Jake in my life long ago because he knew I needed a saving Grace, I needed somebody to save me & Jake did just that. God has been working in our lives in so many different ways & I have never felt so free & so happy. I believe God placed Jake in my life knowing that Jake would lead me closer to him. God is now using Jake & myself to change & inspire other peoples lives. I thank God everyday for blessing me with the most amazing husband.
This is our story for now, I know this is really just the beginning & I can’t wait to see what God has in store for us.
~ Rae & Jake